By focusing on past regrets, shame, stressful moments that pop up unexpectedly, days get darker with increased hopelessness and exhaustion. After careful self-reflection of my repetitive past mistakes, the beginning of each dark pattern begins like this:

• I get hurt, angry, and intense resentment increases.
• I try justifying what I did.
• I rebel and act out in rage and hurt.
• I hide my feelings and mistakes because it feels safe to me.
• I lose my spiritual faith and trust in everyone and only depend on myself.

In the past, my spiritual mentors and close friends showed me how our weaknesses…